My name is John Lawrence and as you may or may not know, I used to be an adult film actor… a porn star.
And let me tell you, the sex was incredible!
Just think about it, if watching porn is a turn on… imagine what living it must be like.
The women were world class: physically perfect and deliciously sexual. They stimulated the senses in ways that I cannot even begin to describe.
There was this one amazing adult actress in particular who had us all wrapped around her little finger. And on a shoot one evening early in my career she took me aside and showed me how to savage her taut body in ways that I still dream about today.
And the producers loved me. I was a big hit from the get go. It was powerful, like a strong addiction.
The celebrities, the all-night after parties, getting into any exclusive night club we wanted, dining at 5 star restaurants every night, and all the high powered craziness that goes with a successful lifestyle in the Hollywood sex industry.
I was quickly swept away in the whirlwind of passion and excitement.
I worked with stars like Jenna J. and Ron Jeremy, Peter North, and the King of Stamina himself, Marcus London. And I was beating the odds in Los Angeles, center of the entertainment world where everyone comes to make it big… yet very few do.
But to be honest, it couldn’t last.
The job is more difficult than you know… and the lifestyle takes its toll on your health. I’m not sure why it happened… but it did… and after about fifty films I took a turn for the worse. By seventy films I was in a full blown free fall of unhappiness and unhealthiness.
And while you may have trouble believing me I am a very private man. I refused to let my personal life affect my professional work. And I did not like to open up about what was happening to my friends, family, or others in the industry. So there was always a great deal going on that I wasn’t sharing. Some nights I would lay awake wondering where I was going and what I wanted to do with my life.
Was this it? Had I reached the peak? And if so, why wasn’t I happier?
Why did I constantly feel like I was meant for something more… something greater than what I was doing?
And to make matters worse, all my male friends thought my life must be perfect and constantly built me up as this sex industry icon that they bragged about. Women wanted to sleep with me. But no one understood what I was going through.
Everyone thought I was so humble but I was really just keeping it all inside.
And the stress and fatigue eventually built up to the point where it impacted my work. I started having trouble getting into the mindset where I could perform up to professional porn standards. I no longer took much pleasure in the sex. It was just work, scene after scene after scene.
Then one day at work I couldn’t get an erection, not even a hint of one. No matter what I tried, I couldn’t get hard. I pretended I was sick and took the week off. I took a short vacation but it didn’t help. No matter how far I went I couldn’t escape my own head.
So when I came back to work I turned to the supplements and tried all of the products on the market.
And while I was able to temporarily fix my performance issues, I often felt even worse afterwards. The drugs made me feel physically ill at times and the side effects sucked.
I started researching the alternatives, reading every forum available, posting questions and comments relentlessly, reading medical texts, and talking to every physician, psychologist, sex therapist, and medical specialist I had access to.
It became a sort of obsession. I knew I had a problem, and I knew there were solutions out there… but I didn’t know if any of the solutions were
right for me.
Over time I became an expert on the matter and other actors in the industry started coming to me for answers. I had a wealth of information and would
tell them what I knew… and it always made me a feel better to help them find what they were looking for.
Now if only I could do the same for myself.
I began traveling to remote parts of the world. At first it was just to get away, but something was drawing me. As I kept researching I found strange
and powerful links between traditional Eastern medicine and male enhancement.
And it was on one such journey into South East Asia that I had a powerful moment of inspiration and realized that THIS is what I was meant for. Not
the travel part, although that was wonderful, but the creation of something that could help people… help people like me who needed a different option…
a better alternative to what was out there.
So after 100 films in adult entertainment I officially retired.
And now I work diligently (as the owner and developer of PHGH) to help men of all ages overcome the very problems that I experienced so powerfully
during the last half of my career in porn.
I’ll never regret my time in the industry.
They were some of the best years of my life and made me who I am today.
But I can honestly say… this is FAR more fulfilling.
PHGH gives me a chance to truly touch lives in a way that I was missing before… to reconnect faithful husbands with their loving wives… to give
lonely men a new chance at a great and fulfilling relationships… to share all the knowledge I have gained and give good advice to those in need…
and to just do my part to make a difference in whatever way I can.
The sexual issues a man faces relating to his ability to perform are often joked about… but in all honesty these problems are not funny at all.
I know because I have suffered through them.
But there is no describing the satisfaction I felt when I successfully overcame the performance obstacles that stood in the way of a fulfilling love-life and an
amazing sexual relationship that rivals anything I did in porn.
And for me there is a wonderful sense of purpose in helping others get there as well.
It may change your life… like it did mine.
Founder and Creator of PHGH